More Nightmares

More dreams - and more nightmares. It's been a while since I've had nightmares one after the other. Last night again, I had a few of them.

One was me moving from house to house in different cities, lost, and constantly running into Adam (the ex) with each driveway I would pull into. I couldn't seem to get away from him.

Another dream was me swimming in the backyard of this beautiful house and the area was covered with beautiful flowers, roses, tulips; it was a Secret Garden. While I was swimming in a pool, Adam shows up and asks me to go to the store with him. I ignored him and then he disappeared in his car.

Another dream was me seeing his car in a parking lot with a friend of mine, and we both panicked. It was at a restaurant that both of us were going to eat at, but my friend insisted we go in. So I did, and there in the waiting area was him and a girl sitting together. I ran into the bathroom and hid for a moment. Then I went back out and he wasn't there but the girl was there sitting alone.

Another dream was me driving down several highways and I kept seeing his car at every turn; I wasn't able to get away from it.

The final one was me going to his house and every time I went in, he was telling me how this girl he was with was someone he was going to stay with unless I came back to him. I remember feeling a lot of pain and then every time I saw her I had feelings of anger; convinced she was in on all this. I had feelings of sadness and pity as well. I had a lot of different feelings. And the more he showed up to tell me about what I was missing out on, the more I kept trying to get away. But no matter where I went, him and the girl were there. Him psychology trying to get me back, and the girl sitting there, looking smug.

When I thought about him and girl together, and the fact that she will most likely be with him for the rest of his life (especially if she hasn't left by now-fellow psychopath victims will relate to this) I felt so much pain. Not just the feeling in me, but for her. And for what he will be doing to her. And how there is no one to stop it. How she will be drained, just like I was. Fed off for years, like a vampire, and then only when she dares to question being sucked dry does she get pushed back down even further into the floor. It was like watching evil happen in front of me and I was helpless.

Dreams like this often happen with stress; it's been a stressful time lately so I'm not surprised these keep happening. Hopefully the next dream will be more positive.