So me and 50 other people met in a big room, around a large white 70's looking porcelain table. Each one of us stood up and talked about why we should be going and what we should or shouldn't talk about. One of the people who stood up was actor Victor French, Mr Edwards from Little House on the Prairie. He stood up in his usual plaid shirt and suspenders, and we listened to his idea.
Suddenly I was on the side of the road in the middle of nowhere, completely alone with a bag, waiting for a bus. A city bus came that decided to stop 100 feet from where I was, so I ran towards it. I got on just in time and the bus kept driving in the middle of nowhere, in this country fields surrounding the roads that just kept going on and on.
Suddenly I'm back in the large room, and back talking with all the people about the spaceship that is going to land soon.
The spaceship lands, and is this stainless steel oval looking thing that is the size of a football stadium. We all get on it. The head alien starts talking to us about how he can help us remember things. As the ship takes off, I look out the windows and see we are flying through space, so its completely dark in there.
The ship has lots and lots of narrow hallways that all have windows that let you look out. So that means, surrounding the ship is a narrow hallway that goes around the entire ship. In order to get out of that hallway, you cut across to another hallway that is another layer of the ship - basically the ship was a labyrinth.
I walked down these walkways, and saw lots of things - people seeing in front of them things that happened in their childhood, people eating dinner, people looking out the windows; it was like a cruise adventure, people all over the place doing things. And the aliens were here and there, walking in between everyone, and helping them out when they had a question.
At one point, I sat on a small couch that was part of a wooden wall, and stared across the walkway through the large window that I saw all sorts of stars and galaxies. And alien came by and sat next to me and I asked him to help me remember. "Remember what" it says. I point to a guy standing several feet down, who is eating and I say "I remember what he did to me." Suddenly, I remember and I'm back in college.
I'm in college, in Oregon at Mount Hood Community College getting my A.A. degree before I take off for film school. Suddenly the music for "Bluebird of Happiness" by Ulrich Schnauss starts playing in my head; especially the quiet beginning. A boy I loved for a long time, walks up to me. Meanwhile, I'm hearing the lyrics "The love in your eyes will get you so far, Gotta find a way back home....gotta find a way back home..." and I stand there while the boy comes up to me. I tell him that he hurt me tremendously and I cant believe he didn't tell me he involved with someone else. He tells me I'm overreacting. He gives me a hug, smiles, laughs and starts to walk away.
As he walks away, he is defensive and beings to tell me that I am too emotional, taking this all the wrong way, that I am awful, etc. "...Never wanted to feel this way..." starts playing from the same song in the background; I am standing there watching him walk off and then he disappears.
I am suddenly back in the spaceship, sitting next to the alien, back on the couch - I turn to him and am crying and say "make him remember". The alien says "What is the good of making another one suffer for your pain". I get up and walk by the boy who is eating dinner there and he waves at me. The alien gives him some kind of helmet and the boy starts remembering what he did. He starts crying.
The alien looks at me. Then it walks away.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2LGfY0YGlkA - Bluebird of Happiness
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