"We are not hypocrites when we sleep." ~ William Hazlitt

Saturday, September 20, 2008

An Empty Building and a Yearning Ulrich


Music: Ulrich Schnauss "Einfeld"

All I can say is that it began with a large stone palace, that somehow turned to the color of ice. It was shiny, bright; brilliant. Yet the insides of this place was completely empty, full of dust and dirt; as if it was one of those unfinished warehouse buildings you see as you drive by it.
6 Floors. Six empty floors. You would enter the building from the bottom, and see a long staircase that went all the way to the ceiling; yet there would be an opening at every floor. The floors had no walls. Everything was in full view.
I was there, with the music of Ulrich's "Einfeld" in the background somewhere. I was alone in all of the emptiness and dust flying around slowly, like slow tiny fireflies that were being highlighted from a setting sun outside.
I looked over the staircase from the highest floor, and saw all the way down to the bottom of the 6 floors this place had. I had a strange feeling that there was no gravity, and that I could fly down to the bottom if I wanted to. I bent down and swished my hand into the empty air, as if putting my hand through water. It felt as if there was no air - but a elating energy that was asking to be felt. I took a rock and tossed it out there, and it leisurely took its time to slowly fall past all the floors, and land softly on the ground.
I decided to fall into the space, and I floated as well down towards the ground. I felt a calming feeling I had never felt before as I was descending. I was at the bottom. I then walked back up all the flights of this one staircase and went back to the 6th floor where I originally was. For some reason I felt compelled to walk over to this one sheek thing in the building; which was a stereo system, playing the same song I had been hearing since the beginning. There is a part in this "Einfeld" song that someone is singing faintly in the background but it's incredibly hard to decipher. In this dream, I heard the entire lyrics - of his saying something like "I can't stand this waiting anymore; to be by myself and waiting for your beauty; trust in everyone you see - Jesus Christ, give me the strength to see through me" in almost a sancrasant type prayer. I looked behind me and saw my two cats watching this, and listening. I walked over to them and sat down with them in the dust, listening to the rest of the music and hearing the passion whisper throughout the entire building structure.

2 comments:

PF said...

Loved it! Thanks for sharing.

I have vivid dreams as well, usually with the same theme. My dreams seem to center around the idea of camaraderie and teamwork, but the dream will suddenly change from one thing to something completley different. For example, I have dreams that I am in a War, then the landscape will suddenly change and I will be running a fly-pattern down the football field and score a TD!

An Oregon Girl said...

Wow! I wish I could paint, because that description has the makings of a really cool painting. For some reason it reminded me of Stephen King's Rose Madder, even though the scenery is different. :)